i feel so many things...

Thank you ZARA BABY (& Brittany DiNardo for telling me that this exists) …!!!

After a 10 minute walkthrough in Bayshore, I am now busting at the seams about having a little BOY to dress up. I needed that. 

The only thing I haven't really gotten my head around is that it won't be Winter when the baby comes…but it was a nice reason to not buy everything I saw in the store. 

The question becomes: do they have gift registries?!

And this has opened my mind up to more thoughts on the nursery (which of course lead to a few more pins…). I love a very subtle nautical look, but I'm taking Loraleah's tip and not really declaring this as a theme to avoid sailor-overload. 

I'm not sure if this is a pregnancy symptom or if I'm just going crazy, but lately all of my convictions have been STRONG. 

If I'm craving something, it becomes all I can think about. 

If I hear a new song that I like, I become OBSESSED with it. 

If I watch a touching video, I cry uncontrollably.

Let's hope for my sake that this is pregnancy related (& hope for Ryan's sake that it doesn't last forever because I think my intensity is starting to become annoying.)

week twenty-two

It feels like someone is flicking me from the inside this week, which basically means Christmas came early because this is the thing I've been most excited about all along. 

Finally some real reminders of this little person who's going to be such a huge part of our lives!

And now that we know he's a boy, it's easier to visualize things like the nursery, a baby shower, and even a first birthday party (that's a long way away, I know, but this is where my mind goes). 

Tell me if this is weird…but for the last week I've been on the hunt to find one piece of baby boy clothing that I love more than words, so that I can channel all of my thoughts towards being excited to dress him up. So far no luck, although Mexx Kids and Baby Gap were the closest I came. Joe Fresh was quite disappointing until about size 3 or 4 in the boys section.

I may have to get creative.

I also need to figure out a way to convince Brittany to come over again to do another coat of the grey paint in the nursery (maybe some sushi or some baked goods…).

As for a pregnancy update, here's what's going on:

• Flipping over in bed at night is getting to be a whole procedure.
• I bought my first bit of maternity clothes, starting with two pairs of leggings and one pair of jeans.
• I feel the baby kicking just a little bit (similar to a flick as I mentioned before) and it usually happens at night while we retire to the living room and watch Breaking Bad.
• I'm crying less these days which is apparently normal and I'm sure Ry is happy.
• My appetite is super low, but now that we know it's a boy Ry has been on my case extra hard about eating protein. He makes me omelettes and I eat them.
• I've been spending a lot of time at Loraleah's place trying to get Luca's newborn photos taken but he's just too good of a baby and wants to be awake all the time! However, the photos that I've taken so far make me crazy excited to take photos of my own little guy. 
• Sleeping almost all of the time, same old. 
• Oh yeah, and the baby is as big as a cantaloupe.

it's a boy!

Is it weird that I feel like I prepared for this party about as much as I prepared for our wedding day?

Probably. 

But I couldn't stop thinking that this was our baby's first party and I needed to make it special! And as much as I may have gone overboard, I'm so happy with how everything turned out. 

On Saturday afternoon, 36 people packed into our little town house for an afternoon party complete with homemade cupcakes, cookies, a big ol' jar of jelly beans, a few games, and lots of pink champagne. 

All 36 people signed the poll board (success!) and the vote was split right down the middle. 

50% thought boy, 50% thought girl. 

But at 3:00pm on the dot…the basement door opened and Brittany released our little dog who then RAN through the main floor with 6 blue balloons tied to his collar, announcing to the whole group that it's a boy!

We had our guests write down the worst baby names they could think of…to give us an idea of what NOT to name the baby.

Highlights included:

Yeezus

Caramel

Chlamydia

Bob

Dolly

Byron

All in all, it was a fabulous weekend and we were so thrilled everyone could make it out to the party (including my family from Toronto!). 

And all my love goes out to Kim, Brittany, and Chris…for being our amazing secret keepers and organizing the reveal for us. Thank you for dealing with balloon drama, reading complicated medical reports, and wearing gender neutral colours to the party to keep us guessing all the way up until the end. 

Could not have done this without you guys! 

Just for fun, I'll end this post with a photo from 

my 20 week ultrasound…! 

That's a little button nose right there :)

Bonus points for you if you can spot the creepy skeleton 

twin in the background…