four months today!!

Eeeee!!!

I love being able to use "months" instead of "weeks" when people ask how pregnant I am. And 4 months sounds totally legit. 

Here's a rundown of the insanely exciting things in my life*

*sarcasm

1. I get SO hungry, eat like one or two bites of something, and feel stuffed. So I have had to resort to drinking shakes at least once a day in order to get a bit of nutrition into my body. 

2. I'm still wearing my regular jeans, which feels like a personal win right now.

3. When I sleep on my stomach, I can now feel the tiniest little mass right under my belly button, which makes it a fairly uncomfortable sleeping position. Thus far, this is the first physical change I've noticed! Which makes me very, very happy. 

4. The baby is the size of an orange. 

5. One month today we'll know the sex of the baby! I feel like that's going to change everything. Suddenly I'll know whether I need to start thinking of a blue nursery, or a pink one. Everything will become more real I think. I seriously can't believe some people are able to not find out!! (Loraleah, I'm talking to YOU.)

6. My birthday is Friday :)

As you can see, life is pretty simple right now. I sleep, I try to find foods that don't disgust me, I sit in my office chair and try to focus on work. 

And if I'm being honest, the most exciting thing going on right now is that little mass I feel when I sleep on my stomach. I can't wait to have a huuuuge watermelon sized pregnant belly, and feel all the kicks and the punches...! 

Time for a nap I think...

pink or blue...pink or blue...

Someone please tell me...what's the point of getting an AWFUL stomach flu during pregnancy? Why would anyone do that to a person?

After adding sick-naps to my usual pregnancy-naps, I literally slept away this entire week. 

In the last two days all that's entered my body is a couple of protein shakes and a box of Kraft Dinner (the heart wants what the heart wants...). I'm feeling almost 100% and ready to shoot my last wedding of the season tomorrow, and I must admit I'm pretty excited to road trip with my lovely friends to Making Things Happen in North Carolina. 

In pregnancy news, I've had yet another prenatal appointment, which I declared "boring" in a text to my mother-in-law, who reminded me that "boring" is the best kind of prenatal appointment to have :)

I have booked my 20 week ultrasound where we will find out whether we're having a Mr. or a little Miss!!! I am literally having dreams about what colour balloons will pop out from the cardboard box at the gender reveal party. 

Last night in my dream, they were pink. Just sayin!!

So that's really all there is to be said! Now I'm off to complete my huge to-do list before tomorrow's wedding and Sunday's trip, which includes things like:

- empty out the car completely

- edit all photos

- out of office message

- stock vegetable drawer for loving husband

...etc!

an outpouring of love and affection!

Yesterday was just the BEST. 

We were able to finally announce the pregnancy on Facebook now that the 12 week mark has come and gone, and it was just the most wonderful outpouring of love, affection, and above all...EXCITEMENT!

What a wonderful feeling to be "out of the closet" about this! 

After an exhausting weekend (a wedding, book club, spending three hours making cake pops...), I don't really feel guilty about taking Monday & Tuesday as another weekend. That means sleeping in, getting around to some chores around the house, and getting my fill of movie-watching. 

To add to the list of things I've cried about:

FORREST GUMP. Need I say more?! I watched this yesterday afternoon without any cellular distractions and I'm not kidding...I cried for three hours straight.

A DOCUMENTARY ON USAIN BOLT. He was just so victorious. I cried thoroughly at the end when they showed his three wins at the 2012 Olympics. If you know me, you know that I'm pretty disinterested in anything sports related. So this was definitely a pregnancy related tear-fest. 

MR. MOCHIZUKI. I spent the night yesterday with a few lady friends of Loraleah's, one of whom said something about teaching at Longfield Davidson Heights, so I asked if she knew Mr. Mo! I started crying when she said she knew who he was. If anyone can explain that, I'd pay good money. 

OUR REVEAL PHOTO. I had this idea in my head of what I wanted. I was going to use a self timer and take the photo myself. We tried to take it on Sunday morning and it was not happening...the timer was too long, and everytime I checked the photo the focus would change slightly. It was a nightmare. My wonderful husband told me not to cry, and asked why we weren't doing something that was, simply put, "us."

When I asked him what "us" was, he said this:

Selfie, happy faces, real emotion, fun, easy. 

He told me that the staged photo I was planning was the opposite of everything I stood for as a "happy people" photographer. He was right. So after breakfast with my parents, we came home and took the photo that you see above. And I'm just so grateful for how it turned out. And how it was perfectly "us."

(Also, this is my favourite "outtake," because it's seriously reflective of how we feel when we think about a baby coming in six months.)

In other news, my asthma is bad news bears. I haven't had bad asthma like this in years so I'll be seeing my doctor about it on Thursday and hopefully my questions will be answered. Mom raised a good point in saying that the baby might not be getting enough oxygen when my asthma wakes me up in the night...so I definitely want to get this fixed. 

Thanksgiving weekend is coming up! Maybe it's pregnancy related, maybe not...but I can't even properly express my excitement. 

I want to eat an entire can of cranberry sauce.

THERE'S A BABY IN MY BELLY!

AHHH!!

I wasn't prepared to see A BABY IN THERE!

We had our first ultrasound today and it was mind blowing. I mean, the baby was literally JUMPING AROUND! I had no idea the baby was moving that much, it's so insane!! Especially since I obviously can't feel anything. 

It's the weirdest feeling...

There's a baby in my belly. And I'm in love. 

This is an iPhone shot of me holding the first printout (which I took before I saw the "no cellphones" sign haha, woo!!). We have a little hard copy in an envelope that I'll probably take a proper photo of later. 

It makes me so excited for the baby to get bigger and for us to see a much clearer picture!

So hello little baby! We can finally see your adorable little head!! You look smart already.